Rerun of December: Wish It'd Snow
I'm proud to say this entry got posted on Freeman last December, even with my unapt knack for mispelling words and creating new grammar. lol I wasn't able to get a hard copy of it (Delly just told me) so I decided to post this here as my remembrance since I have the tendency to delete stuff in my computer even when I know I will need it some day soon.
Wish It’d Snow By Rachelle Gail Tiu
The D-month is back! Dearest December, with all its frills and gluttony, is one of the most awaited holidays. As a child, you remember the stacks of gifts piling up the tree; as a teen, you remember the sweet Christmas break and the tons of party to attend; as an adult, well…you remember organizing endless parties, the growing inches of your waist and the gift list you need to shop and wrap up for the kids before they go berserk on Christmas eve. Notice the trend as we grow older? J
Christmas is all about the merriment. Even with all the worries of surging bills, waistline, shopping and setting up the decors, the excitement never dies down to the countdown of Christmas Eve. Mimicking European and following Catholic traditions, we put up the artificial evergreen tree and set up the nativity scene in our house. All we lack is the Chubby Santa mascot and the ground covered with glorious snow.
As a child, I would peer on the window, wishing that instead of rain, snow will fall; instead of having a plain roof, we would also have chimney, and then maybe Santa might come to visit. My world was small but borderless. On Christmas Eve, I get to make a wish. It was like a 2nd birthday but this time the cake is not mine to have the 1st slice. After all, Christmas is supposedly Christ’s birthday. Those glimpses of the past bring a smile to my face.
Now, I live in a world where tasks are categorized per minute, productivity is defined by making every second counts. One hour feels like a second, a day like an hour, and November seemed like yesterday. Shopping for gifts feels like a whirlwind of going from one store to another. Christmas binge here and there, which I would lose count off as the days progress. I felt guilty every time I wait in the car for the traffic stoplight, as I watched children clapping a tune, trying to earn merge pesos for something to eat, while I have the liberty to get more than what I need. Although I committed myself to volunteer work, I feel like we are giving them temporary help. A small kelp in the deep blue ocean filled with hungry fishes.
We take things for granted. I haven’t noticed how much task-packed days I had until, last weekend, when I went outside to our garage to fetch something left behind. As usual, my dogs greeted me with a rotating flip of their tails and eager barks. Not minding them, I proceeded to search for the papers in the car. After finding them, I was about to go back to the warm safety of our home, when a wet nose poked my bare leg. Smiling, I bent down to give Goober, one of the dogs, a nice rub. He rewarded me with the catch-me-if you-can antics. Figuring a minute of play was harmless enough, I joined in. That one minute was a better stress reliever compared to an hour on the couch watching telly and eating junk. Feeling exhilarated after the short burst of energy, I took a deep breath to relax and, by accident, saw the sky. Not just the sky, the stars! Those tiny bright jewels in the dark night. They weren’t just doing their usual blinking, they were shimmering! I saw them without needing any glasses. I stood there in awe, not moving. When was the last time I looked up the stars just for plain enjoyment? I couldn’t remember. My dog, sensing my amazement, sat beside me and watched. If we look like two fools in the dark, staring at the distant nothing, I wouldn’t care. I felt peace, something that has been lacking in this past days. I felt like being given a 2nd birthday. I missed having wishful thinking.
Much like wishing for snow…
Rerun of December: Wish It'd Snow
I'm proud to say this entry got posted on Freeman last December, even with my unapt knack for mispelling words and creating new grammar. lol I wasn't able to get a hard copy of it (Delly just told me) so I decided to post this here as my remembrance since I have the tendency to delete stuff in my computer even when I know I will need it some day soon.
We need to talk conversation = I need to talk monolog
It’s been a while. Hello blog. How's going? Did people harass you by clicking your everywhere w/o my permission. There there. I'm here. I have been busy lately but that's no excuse. I've been negligent as always and not just with you. How do you say to someone that my life is spinning around in circles, and you know that it’s you whose been spinning the wheel, yet you can’t stop yourself because you got used to the dizzy feeling of being out from reality? I can’t say too much has pass because I still have spare time to just lie in bed staring at nothingness when I know my eyes are pleading to get some needed sleep. I can’t say that nothing happened because how do you explain this rush sense of doing the things that have been bugging you for weeks? I don’t expect you to understand. It’s not you, it’s me. I haven’t change, have I? Same old new me. Do you think I’ll ever learn? Probably not. But then again, I can always try…again…and again…and maybe just maybe I can finally push the brake, steady my flailing arms and move forward. Ah yes another blog entry filled with nothing and yet satiated with so much more. Till next time
Its a sad day for all of us
This has been a depressing week. Our friend’s bro just passed away last week. He was still in his 30s. I hate to see my friend go through over the same trauma of another young loved one die. We visited her in her house, where the wake was held. Although we were chatting away happily, I hope she’ll be alright after all this. Now, she’s the only one left for her precious parents and I'm sure she will be more protective than ever. May your bro soul rest in peace....
Another colleague was rushed to the hospital. She had an asthma attack and her brain lacked precious air. Sad to say, 70% of her brain was damaged. She was still on her 8th month pregnancy. Her baby is fine, but she was in critical condition. Insurance and donations from TMX weren’t enough for the expense. Her condition was closely monitored for the past few days. Everything seemed fine, she was slowly recovering but now, we just receive that she passed away early morning. She was still also in her late 20s. Another life gone. Her baby was delivered safety, thank God.
This week was the most tragic of all I have experience. Two lives lost. Many people will mourn for them. Everyone was their tightest moment as we wait for her recovery. Not to mentioned that people were getting sick...dengue season is here...I don't want to dwell about that just now. And another sad part is that two of our dearly beloved managers will resign for personal reasons. We will miss them dearly.
Death may not be the end....I just hope it will be the start of a new beginning. Please pray for them....
its not a bad birthday afterall...OMG im 22!
I wanted to post this with the pics para lingaw but i left all my pix in my office computer...anyways ill update my pixs on mon..^^
here's what happened last week: good and not so bad :)
Good: Sweet. When I arrived in the office, this basket with sweets and ballons greeted me a happy day. Aww...im touched. It’s from my department. I love my mommy (direct boss), grannie (head of the team), and greatmama (head boss). Mind you, they are not that old as we nicknamed them. All the July celebrants in our department had cake to share. Yum chocolate!
Bad: the data warehouse from Middlebury, US crashed so I cant extract my data. OMG. I am not having OT just for that on my BIRTHDAY! The deadline for the final report is the next day. So there I was, with anything to do for the whole day. At least, I managed to update some of my personal documents. At least, greatmama understands and extended the deadline till thurs. yay!
Good: eat out in TONGS in Marina Mall. It’s the nearest eat all you can place. It 3 in one, meaning 3 july celebrants friends dutch treat the barkada. Yummy oyster an biko ^^. I think I had 5 (small) plates lol. Chicka jud to the max! (and backbiting on nukos girl hehe)
Bad: its may’s last day, so in a way, this is also his despidida. Aw...we’ll miss you so much! No more 200++ msg/day filled with chikka. Hehe don’t worry, we’ll fill the gap.
Good: Friday was our department JSProm theme day. DS office was transformed! So were the people in there. Gowns, tux, and frufru galore! Our team was invited to celebrate with them (technically we are part of DS group but our office is located in GO so its embarrassing to wear gowns in GO with all the other departments staring at us) next theme day (WINTER) is next month. I cant wait!! Idol grannie! She won the best bowler! Wow ^^
More good stuff: Next week is our team’s turn to party! Yay!
So in the end, its not such a bad week after all...
upLATE: adventures along routines
Its been weeks since I finally organized my sked and finally have the time to update my blog. I finally got my 1st 2 reports right! (yay) Believe me it wasn’t easy, especially on extracting and validating the source files. Its annoying especially when you made the final report and here comes another email saying that one of my sources decided to change the data. So I have to RE-do the whole thing again, which is due on that same day. The nerve. It took me 2 days the 1st time I did one of them. Any mistake would cost my job since I deliver them to the top management (It happened twice but in different managers but luckily they knew I was still new to the job >.<).
My boss is okay. Nice, friendly and likes to teach me stuff I barely know about in my work. It helps when you’re in a deadline parole hehe and it makes my job, well in a way, desirable (meaning: not leaning to resignation haha). I decided not to speak tagalong (for obvious reasons wahaha) except during phone conversation. For some strange reason, when I listen to someone speaking, I subconsciously try to mimic the accent haha.
The office is REALLY cold. Popsicle cold. I had to bring a jacket, socks AND blanket to keep me from freezing. What is wrong with them? No one can live in that unergonomic condition (except for our top boss who’s from US and thinks it is still hot). Food in the cafeteria is puol na. I mean how can you eat the same food every week? Plus I had 3 encounters where I actually had spoiled food but they weren’t beyond expiry date. Talk about sanitation and QC. But its free so what the heck. Ill just be extra careful on ‘new’ food. Ohh and I think I’m gaining weight ever since I bought snacks (bags of them) for munching in the office…shrug.
On my way to work is also an adventure, that is, if you want to see dead people on the pavement, people staring at your all white clothes (Chinese mourning) and if you were wearing business attire (what, they haven’t seen a Chinese hailing a jeep in style? Hehe) and had a flat tire on the jeep you were commuting and still continued to drive as if nothing happened in the speeding pace. I freaked out (only 2 tires were working and both of them are in the other side where I was sitting, who wouldn’t?)
Yup all part of days work ^^
Taglish anyone?
well this week is exciting...not. im still in trainning so i cant do much except listen to boring lectures. i want my damn computer now! i want to start working! i want my email...everywhere i see people engross with their work and talk about techie terms only they understand. expedite this, kill order, DFCS, terms i need to know. akong only newbie sa department ko. i have to know the people and the process fast! plus ang dami tao nagtagalog! boss ko rin hindi intindi ng bisaya. i am so dead! pero kakayanin ko! >.< i will speak tagalog na. correct mi na lang if masyadong mali sa grammar. i know ever since i suck at this language hehe
hopefully, since maglipat ang department ko ng ibang lugar, mayroon akong table, chair at computer makipanglibangan. sinabi sa boss ko starting next week, may kong bagong assignment. o-oh. kunti lang sana...
strangely, i like buying stuff to bring in our office. i think ill grow fat here. haha
